“I once heard a sober alcoholic say that drinking never made him happy, but it made him feel like he was going to be happy in about fifteen minutes.
That was exactly it, and I couldn’t understand why the happiness never came, couldn’t see the flaw in my thinking, couldn’t see that alcohol kept me trapped in a world of illusion, procrastination, paralysis. I lived always in the future, never in the present. Next time, next time!
Next time I drank it would be different, next time it would make me feel good again. And all my efforts were doomed, because already drinking hadn’t made me feel good in years.”
― Heather King, Parched
“I kept waiting for something bigger, something more profound, something that I could hitch myself to and be carried away once and for all to the heaven-on-earth that I deserved.
I kept struggling for control, which was really a demand for everything I wanted–peace, happiness, love, perfection–all at once, right now, and for all time. I wanted life to be perfect, always.
And when it wasn’t, which was most of the time, I got really anxious, and when I got anxious, I started thinking about how good it would feel to get high again. ”
― William Moyers
This article was printed in the AA Grapevine in 1991. That’s a long time ago, and yet it still resonates today. That definitely makes it a sign of an unresolved problem within our Fellowship. When the twelfth stepper who took me to my first meeting arrived, I told her …
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There is an increasing number of groups within AA that are not religious in their thinking or practice. These groups don’t recite prayers at the beginning or ending of their meetings nor do they suggest that a belief in God is required to get sober or to maintain sobriety. If the readings at their meetings include AA’s suggested program of recovery, then a secular or humanist version of the 12 Steps is sometimes shared.
If you asked the members of these non-religious groups about their vision of the fellowship, they would probably describe it this way:
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others recover from alcoholism. The only requirement for AA membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for membership: we are self-supporting through our own contributions. AA is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution: neither endorses nor opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
An aboriginal woman wrote..“Returning to my spiritual roots in AA”
The above is worth a read in my opinion.. comments please.
Most of us want change but few of us are willing to work for it.
We expect change to be magic, we aren’t willing to live differently. And we sure as heck don’t want to learn from others or teach others. The first mistake we cave in and go back to our unhappy comfort zone. Change isn’t about asking our Creator for a favour, it’s asking for a plan to live differently. It isn’t something we do now and then, or once in awhile. It’s a complete life style change.
It’s easy to hear, see or experience a plan for change, doing it is the key. The Creator always provides what we need for what we seek. Problem, most of us only talk about what we know, we don’t take the action to make it our plan for living. Day in and day out we are given help to change, we are shown by those in our life circle at every encounter.
Knowing is the first step but without action it avails us nothing.
I thought today’s GV was apropos given that some members are embarrassed when a drunk shows up at a meeting. R 😉
“Let us remember that great legion who still suffer from alcoholism and who are still without hope. Let us, at any cost or sacrifice, so improve our communication with all these that they may find what we have found – a new life of freedom under God.’”
AA Co-Founder, Bill W., February 1961
“The Shape of Things to Come”
I Am Responsible: The Hand of AA
Editor’s Note: Carl Jung had more experience with dealing with and treating addiction, and more of an impact on the origins of Alcoholics Anonymous, than is usually acknowledged and for which he is given credit. In a second letter to Jung, dated March 20, 1961, Bill Wilson wrote: “(Your) views had an immense …(continue)…
Sunday October 18 Kobau grp. Gord M. (young Gord) 14 years.
Sunday November 1st Kobau grp. Gord M. (older Gord) 40 years